June 6, 2011

Silent Thoughts

I once know how to LOVE somebody..trully..unconditionally..

Sometimes, I walk down memory lane not because I still wanting you to come back, but to look back the mistake I have done and to constantly remind myself why things dont work out between us.
(the truth! sincerely, me)

I grow up comparing myself to Barbie. I dont have long blonde hair AND mine is black, I dont have sparkling blue eyes AND mine is brown, I am not 6 feet tall, and my body is far from perfect..err..no description for this one. But I am still better than Barbie. Why? Because I am real..that is more than she could ever be.

I may not be the most beautiful or the sexiest woman, nor do I have the perfect body. I may not be everybody's first choice, but I am a great choice. I dont pretend to be someone im not, because im good at being me. I may not be proud of some of the things in my past, but im proud of who I am today. So take me as I am, or watch me as I walk away.

December 10, 2010

May 4, 2010

Learn It. Live It. Love It

I hate the way you talk to me. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick. It even makes me rhyme. I hate it. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry. She begins to cry as she continues to read. I hate it when you're not around and the fact that you didn't call, but mostly I hate the way I don't hate you; Not even close; Not even a little bit; Not even at all.
Cute Bunny Graphics

April 18, 2010


As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.
Cute Bunny Graphics

March 23, 2010

I Am Me

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

February 26, 2010

Nobodys' Likes

I believe you are only as good as your team.
So whatever your role is, own it, trust it, it will lead you exactly where you're supposed to be.
I'm imperfect, yet absolutely perfect. I'm a believer, a dreamer, a fighter, a lover.
Sometimes I don't know when to let go, but I'm getting much better at knowing when!
I've made plenty of mistakes, but I learn quick, and I pick myself up even quicker.
I truly believe all you have is what you give.
So it's important to know what that is means for you. For who you are, what you say, do or don't, affects others.
Just my thoughts! im just a ordinary simple happy go lucky person. They said i'm arrogant-but actually i'm not!.
Hey! i'm friendly! come on! ~ I love so deeply and get hurt deeply as well.
I never get tired falling in love, coz i've got so much love to give ~ sigh
Love to laugh. i cry on sad movies. i cry when the situation is very complicated for myself and feel like wanna give up on something that eventhough its a good choice, but i still keep going on. thats life!! What you see is what you get, if you don't like it, sucks for you :))

February 6, 2010


Hey guys.
You should know who am i
im not desperate
i hate it when a guy judge me before he knows me as well
i keep thinking about love someday
i look around me
a couples, a married people, and a sadness ending
sometimes all is it be a question in my head
yea, im still find my true love dude
a guy who always care about me
understand me
really appriciate me
and accept me as well
i dont need ur gentleness but actually u're hypocrite
cool, gentlemen, matured, caring
thats what i want
whatever u want to say
whatever u want to judge me
its up to you
me is me
and i know what i want.
Never say I love you if you really dont care,
Never talk about the feelings if they really aren't there.
Never hold my hand if your gonna break my heart,
Never say your going to if you never plan to start.
Never look in my eyes if all you do is lie,
Never say "hi" if you really mean "good-bye".
If you really mean 4-ever, then you will try,
Never say 4-ever cuz 4-ever makes me cry.
But life in the heart of your beloved, WAS, IS, AND WILL ALWAYS BE LOVE, LOVE AND ONLY LOVE.

true me

I want someone who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. Hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. Someone who would sing to me at random moments. Who would let me sleep on there chest. I want someone who would call me 3 times a day if he went away. Someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh. He would take me to the park and put his hand around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. He would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it. And we'd make out in the pouring rain. He would never be afraid to say "I love you" in front of his friends. I want a boy that would hugs me at midnight and count the stars with me. Someone who would tell me i'm beautiful but not too often. Who would make me happy like no one else could. But mostly I want someone who would be my boy and would never break my heart..i wish dat!! Hurm..i don't respond to any of flirty shits from anybody..yeah! tat is my attitude. My life is not a perfect 1 but i wont change it for the world. Its simple, pure, hilarious, horrible & everything in a mix that i can still get control of. When my life gets hard & things dont go the way i planed, i dont go & brag, cry or hang on to it forever, i move on with life. the world doesnt revolves around me, i just keep on living & live it the way i want it to be & i never let anyone change how i live. cuz i know how i am living right now is good enough for me. yaw! chiow :)

October 1, 2009

broken u

how many heartbreaks does it take
till u realize its not right
when it happens do forgive and forget
or do u care and cry
how many does it take till u understand
everyone has gone through it yet we never stop
what is luv if it leaves u dead with a broken heart
is it love when u cry from them
if luv is supposed to be happy
then why are we sad
to all people who read this i hope u understand
that if this helps u will be strong in all heartbreaks
or have none at all.
this is life people luv is not good its painfull and to me its real luv and heartbreaks are no laughing matter they are everyone life they are my life if u love u will hate we dont need any more hatred that there already is luv same with heartbreaks and hatred.
broken hearts are reality wake up.

February 25, 2009

dear diary of me..

At times I feel like im someone but im not..
At times I feel as if the whole world is watching every breath I take,
every movement I make..
At times I feel lost..not knowing what to do next in life..
At times I feel dead inside, no good feelings, no emotion at all..
At times I wish I were someone else..
At times..I really try to see myself through other eyes,
but all I see is a fake a lie, im not as happy and care free as some may think..
At times I find myself thinking..

I cry for the time that you were almost mine,
I cry for the memories I have left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new,
I cry for the times I thought I had you..

Well.. im going to make diz blog that gives off the total truth of me..
but since im lazy to write everyday on here and i dont care that i have no friends on here or anything..
this is like a place just for me to keep my feelings..well i dont have anything to say..

diz is story of a gal

Well..I luv to laugh n I talk A LOT as talkative girl! I dont descriminate..
And dont mess with my frenza..Im can be such as a little crazy sumtimes..like to dream, luv musics rili much..addicted with chocolate..owez outing..window shopping n now on my way become a partime gamerz playerz as counter strike n dota..rili addict! ehee..i luv car n luv emo too..n im is cant control myself to take a picture!!..uwaa.. (:

As years goes by, i changed a lot..i learned to appreciate what ive been given..n i realized any fact facing us is not as important as our attitude towards it, for that determines our success or failure. The way you think about a fact may defeat you before you ever do anything about it. You are overcome by the fact because you think you are. Sometimes you've got to get hurt in order to grow,
Sometimes our visions seem clearer after our eyes are washed out with tears..
It's not what happens to you that determines how far you will go in life it is how you handle what happens to you.

Don't dwell on what went wrong. Instead, focus on what to do next. Spend your energies on moving forward toward finding the answer..
I always trust that everything happens for a reason, even when we're not wise enough to see it.